Day 80

The unpredictability of the British Weather is no better illustrated than this week. Last year at the time Jack, Lucy and Harry were with us we had what I would describe as the only decent week of the summer. Thus far this year has been something of a washout. On Day 80 for example we have been treated to a persistent strong wind and also some rain. I went yesterday with Jack and Lucy to see Transformer 2. This has a 12A certificate. Jack and Lucy enjoyed it which is the main point. For my part I thought it over long and to be honest after the third robot fight in the first thirty minutes rather boring. Still films like this are not designed for people like me.

There is no doubt that despite my best efforts as the time for the operation comes nearer I am starting to feel just a little bit edgy. When my Daughter in Law, Gillian, went home yesterday I felt some sadness as I realised that the next time I would see her would be after my hospital treatment. Other slightly irrational thoughts have occurred. In Britain the media and Government have gone into full panic mode over swine flu. We are told that schools might have to stay closed and high dependency beds reserved for flu victims. Now I have been told that unless there is a bed available in high dependency my operation won't happen. I know its irrational and almost certainly won't happen, I am afraid I would be less than human if the thought did not cross my mind.

All that said, I am determined to go forward with the treatment and cope with the recovery period no matter how long it takes.